Entrainment
We lay apart
On separate beds
Wrapped together
in fields of light
So palpable
As if my arms and legs
were tangled up in yours
As if my belly was
pressed tightly against yours
Impossibly close
As if we shared
one skin
Our chi passed secrets back and forth
Whispers we could not make out
Burning Nazca lines and
lightning diagrams
A joyous pain
We were slowly becoming
the burning bush
You'd lain down first
and I was so afraid of
your exploding head
afraid of hurting you
and of whatever was growing inside of me
a planetary pull
an unexpected well
I was falling into
So I let go
and felt like a wizard
reading your secret sorrows
And trailing through your
seas and gardens
ululating jungles
bursting with life
barely restrained
coruscating reefs
places that just yesterday
had seemed cold starlit deserts
and airless moons
now awash in heat and rain
I felt you stirring beneath me
Bending towards me
like a flower to the sun
And auroras
bloomed in our conjoined eyes
And the world stopped
And I forgot to breathe
The best work I'd ever done
The best love I'd ever made
I looked at you
with my eyes closed
and a hidden world
transfixed me
a brief glimpse
of something larger
A hidden order of energy
Timeless
As if all time were one
dream of Now
As if all space were a single point
And then it was gone
And I took my turn
and lay down
A supplicant
Trusting
vulnerable
and open
And you in turn penetrated me
Saw the light in me
Made it novae
Until it felt like
the whole house
was afire
and everyone in the room
should've been staring at us
mouths agape
at the miracle
When we were done
remaking the world
we leaned together
back to back
innocent as two kids
daydreaming on a beach
And my body breathed yours in
And went electric
and called to yours
in long forgotten tongues
And the light started its transit
A giant infinity-flow
flowing through us
calling us home
And suddenly it became inevitable
and un-simple
And I denied it
like a man denying the tides
There followed
two nights of begging
for sleep or release or oblivion
Two nights circling myself
Trapped against a wall
Heart racketing in my ears
Not quite knowing
Yet knowing
Caught in a dance
neither of us had asked for
but both of us had dreamt of
And suddenly yes
It had become inevitable
and un-simple
And we dove into the undertow
And as we surfaced
I beheld you
in your crowning glory
released at last
into our shared incandescence
And 'I love you' pried past
my tightly clenched teeth
Crashing through hours of restraint
like a wild horse that will not be broken
Inappropriate
Premature
And yet there it was
Truth
